Trying to Focus

Baby making and thinking about all this stuff with braces and jaw surgery can be distracting. I have my own sort of schedule at work so I often "zone out" if I'm not super busy with work. That zone out period has been happening more frequently in the last few weeks. I stalk r/tryingforababy on Reddit constantly. I look at r/TFABLinePorn every day and upvote every single entry. Doesn't help that I added my own entry there the other day ;) It's a very cautious positive for now because I haven't technically missed my period. I told Dustin and my BF Laura, but I'll keep mum for a while longer with this pregnancy.

Anyway, I have been about twice as tired as normal in the past week. I'm stressed. Dustin and I are working on some things, communication mainly. We're trying to make more time for one another in the evenings especially - it's literally the only time of day (about one hour) that we have time alone. 

Back to the work thing though. I don't know if I'm bored or just frustrated. I have very little motivation lately to do anything more than what's immediately asked of me. If I'm not given a deadline for the things I work on I tend to put them aside until I'm asked for the work to be completed right away. Maybe I need to implement a work schedule for myself and literally log in all the things that I need to do and set my own deadlines. And then have my manager approve the deadlines just so that I am accountable to someone else. 

Still haven't heard from the oral surgeon yet. I'm going to give the clinic a call today to ask how long I might expect to wait for an appointment. I don't need a set date I guess, I'd just like a time frame.