More Waiting!

I shouldn't be surprised. I've read through a dozen or more orthognathic surgery/braces related blogs so I should know I'll be waiting every now and then during this whole process.

I e-mailed the oral surgeon's clinic yesterday to ask about my referral and consult. They gave me a standard reply of "once we get your referral, we'll call you for an appointment". That wasn't really the answer I was looking for but it sure sounded like they hadn't received any of my referral info from Dr. Kirk. So I called my ortho clinic and left a message asking about the referral. They called me back a short while later to say they'd send my referral package again.

Today I got a call from the surgeon's office! YAY! However...the next date they have available is July13th. That's over a month away!! *sobsnortuglycry* On the bright side, the receptionist said Dr Johnson is very thorough during his consultations so I should plan to be there for about an hour.

Another thing I'm waiting for - well, despite my positive pregnancy test, I know my period is "due" two days from now. For the next week or so I'm going to be watching every sign my body gives me regarding the viability of this pregnancy Spotting? Could be my period or implantation bleeding! Emotional? Could be a surge of any kind of hormones! Fatigued? Could be that I'm building an embryo or that my iron is about to dip again! Bloated? Who the F knows why that could be?!

It won't even end there, to be perfectly blunt. I know that being 4w5d, my risk of miscarriage is somewhere around 25%. Even next week once I miss my period (fingers kept tightly crossed!!) that only lowers to about 10%. I miscarried in January at 11w5d (spotting began at 10w3d, but I thought every thing was fine so I just say I carried to 11w5d) and some statistics say a healthy woman my age would have had a 2% chance of that happening in that stage. Man, I am so much more worried about this than when I found out I was pregnant with Caitlin. I am happy I have some good news, but it's only "sort of" good news. I can't celebrate it yet, and there is pretty much nothing I can do at this point except eat well, drink lots of water, and get my rest. There's nothing else I have control over and that's pretty frightening.